To pour the poison out.
RLTo2k
No.4284
>>4261(OP)
likh na toh , kaha gya?
t9CguO
No.4290
>>4284
Abhi likhu zaruri thodi hai. Baad me likhunga jab man kare.
BftvWh
No.4291
Aaj toh driving sikhne jaunga
(Text Content Sanitized Too.)
RLTo2k
No.4295
>>4290
ok fren
gZmsZv
No.4311
I want to write but idk where to start and where to go. When there's no clarity I think it's best to just write randomly on a physical notebook instead. This place should be reserved for more "well thought" posts (apart from those made in moments of anger, anxiety and desperation).
I will however post a few links (for no reason):
I promise this week or the next I will read atleast one old issue of Phrack.
gZmsZv
No.4314
Is saying someone is "afraid of using their brain" just a less blunt way of saying they're retarded?
Links:
- https://sebastianmarines.com/post/linux-file-descriptors-and-what-does-21-mean/
- https://man7.org/linux/man-pages/man1/find.1.html
Anyways good night frens and ghosts.
YoEkD4
No.4321
Although other things in life are going somewhat okayishly, like staying away from my phone, not jumping between tabs too much, watching less corn and so on, my insecurities are only getting stronger and stronger. Insecurities about lots of things, some within my control and some not so much.
Because of this, my brain (am I the same as my brain?) has started to play this fantasy of martyrdom where I end up dying alone and not propagating myself and somehow saving atleast 1 or 2 poor souls from suffering. Whenever the mind voices go out of control and start giving me physical pain this fantasy starts playing as a last resort and only then do those voices stop. Do I need therapy? Idk. I might just have had too much free time and overconsumption of doomer content intensified by particularly gullible nature.
Anyways, I pray to God to help me get through these times and find peace someday. I have somewhat controlled the desire to be desired. At one point the world shows you your place in it. I have been shown mine. Once this wish to be someone significant dies down I think then I'll really be able to live in peace and not be affected by neither doomerism nor bloomerism. I'll just be an unthinking (already am) and most importantly an unfeeling automaton gliding through life planned by our mega corpo overlords.
(by wishing to be significant I don't mean a millionaire or a ceo or a scientist or anything. Just someone who earns good money and is well off. That too seems too distant rn)
YoEkD4
No.4322
>>4321
>these shaky times
Blaming social media for ruining your attention span and focus is retarded. You let yourself be swayed by content irrelevant to you. You let yourself be fooled. You let yourself "enjoy" years worth of useless and retarded "just for 5 minutes" slop. And now you cling to ideas that victimize you and identities that let your explain your failures (thanks dictator for these thoughts).
There are people who've achieved 10x more than you and still use social media healthily and do everything you now don't do believing that somehow not doing those things now will "fix" you. Character flaws aren't fixed like that. Idk how they are but certainly not by cutting everything and still being the same.
so much. so fucking much of this is just me spouting borrowed thoughts from greater individuals in hopes I'd be able to imitate fractions of their greatness. It's all useless. larping doesn't get you far. At some point your retardation will come back at you.
yj6jHT
No.4353
_Now I've been crazy, couldn't you tell?_
RoBEgV
No.4384
Time flies faster when all you do is consoom. 5 years went by in an instant and I didn't even realize. Idek what I was doing.
7% of 2026 has passed away too, yet I do not see any improvements in my life.
DlK1EX
No.4391
fq it. low marks don't mean shit. I am not gonna succumb to cooming for stress release again.
bc padh liya hota 10th me, 12th me. dediya hota jee. aaj ye naubat nhi aati.
DlK1EX
No.4392
>>4391
relief*
RgN/EL
No.4398
>>4322
don't blame yourself so much ananwa. Keep grinding. You will waste days doing nothing but overall kaam karte rehna mangta. How is your BTech going( if I can recall correctly)?
9UiuBy
No.4408
>>4398
Hi Yui anan. Bhery congrats on getting jaab. I hope you get all the qt sexo now.
9UiuBy
No.4409
>>4398
You are mistaken anon I am not a Btechtard.
TKZ5R2
No.4410
1XuKiv
No.4411
>>4410
I don't look fat but am on mild obesity category. I am about 5'10" and weight 86kg.
TKZ5R2
No.4412
1XuKiv
No.4414
>>4412
OBC sirs. Why do you ask?
TKZ5R2
No.4415
>>4414
you had the SGTOW flag for a while so i guess i was curious
1XuKiv
No.4416
>>4415
Ah that. I just switch between flags randomly.
ItLWE2
No.4417
DNuWau
No.4427
>>4417
Thanks anon. Things are pretty hard right now but I am trying not to give up too early this time. The consequences of not studying at all after 10th are showing up now and I am struggling even with basic BSc subjects.
You do your best too anan. We'll all make it someday.
DNuWau
No.4433
I am lucky to have had people like dictator in my life. Ofc it sucks that I couldn't keep up and it fucking hurts, but atleast I got to face myself in the process and now am continually pissed at being whatever I am.
Thanks yaar, really. But I need to move on with life too.
GN frens. This year I at least want to get more disciplined and make peace with my mediocre life.
0IqeqY
No.4468
vQCuB7
No.4478
Padé Approximants
Redeem
pAUEXT
No.4485
My night was going fine and I was having fun. Then I discovered something and got curious and dug some more and now I am sad. Fck man.
Anyways,
Ykw, let's try not posting a pyaari/girl/woman for a while and see what changes. Exceptions include lain, dorothy and a few other animu charas.
gn
gGejQQ
No.4486
>>4485
What did you find out?
pAUEXT
No.4487
>>4486
Nothing serious anan. I am affected by very retarded things.
pAUEXT
No.4488
In my decade of "being" on the internet I never used it. Sucks. Whatever.
Anyways,
Whenever I search for wallpapers with any emotional theme, it's always wallpapers of girls. Or atleast the majority of them are. That's maybe because I only used to search for animu wallpapers. But even now I either see a girl being the one feeling the emotion or just an empty scenery. I haven't really seen random men being drawn as feeling something as much.
Ig I just don't have enough experience to actually know how things really are.
S2NzG2
No.4489
Things are not going well. My forgetfulness is actually harming me and my psyche now. I forget things too easily too quickly. Important things, deadlines, idk maybe more.
S2NzG2
No.4490
PeaZip was giving me anxiety. Deleted it.
S2NzG2
No.4491
Explorer.exe is annoying. Switched to yazi. Let's see.
Vz930i
No.4494
H/4Fk1
No.4495
TKZ5R2
No.4496
>>4489
it's a byproduct of spending too much time online and not writing stuff down
i used to be very unorganized in skewl, slacking off until I graduated and became a NEET. But then I got a whiteboard and I nailed it to my wall where I can see it from all parts of my room and now I can't forget anything
pAUEXT
No.4508
I couldn't even come up with this simple regex. WHY AM I SO LOW IQ MAN.
pAUEXT
No.4510
RgN/EL
No.4512
>>4427
you are doing BSC? WHy ananwa? what are your plans after? wait, I thimk I had talked with you months ago on this.
Q+cY2R
No.4524
>>4512
I fucked up really badly anan. Thats pretty much it.
>had interaction with you
Pretty sure I wasnt the one. I started using bhach again after months around 7~9 Jan this year. And I dont remember talking about my degree with anyone.
Q+cY2R
No.4527
CfgX5s
No.4528
FJzwpT
No.4533
After months of not watching any animeslop I decided to start one yesterday. Didnt want to watch anything emotionally heavy or demanding so I asked troongpt for recs and then decided on this show called Somali and tThe Forest Dpirit.
It's shit. Wont recommend. I only watched one ep.
FJzwpT
No.4534
>>4532
priya is an exception to no foid rule
pAUEXT
No.4537
Are indian IPs blocked from rentry[dot]co? I can't open it.
pAUEXT
No.4544
Hearing about bantus and getting reminded of their greater physical prowess depresses me. There's no reason for me to be affected by it but I can't help it. Mind fucked you could say.
pAUEXT
No.4551
I downloaded m0nkrus's acrobat crack coz people in my family keep asking me to edit parts of their PDFs (like text, images, etc) but now I don't know whether I want to install it or not. Why does this happen? Similar thing happens every time I am about to do something "new".
pAUEXT
No.4561
>>4560
retarded firefox screenshotter fked up. (I absolutely love firefox's screenshot tool).
Hidden part is
>ML-KEM-1024, based on CRYSTALS-Kyber, module learning with errors
pAUEXT
No.4565
more places (some I had lost)
- [Blocked URL: https://www.dampfkraft.com]/
pAUEXT
No.4566
>>4565
- https://anonymousplanet.org/
- https://soatok.blog/category/cryptography/ [cancerous graphics]
pAUEXT
No.4568
Highlight video currently being played.
pAUEXT
No.4569
>>4567
Link dumping anan. Interesting imageboards and two cryptography related blogs. Nothing much of value there tbh.
Vqt3W7
No.4570
>>4569
Appreciate it if, would check them out of I get the time.
pAUEXT
No.4571
Vqt3W7
No.4572
>>4571
Got it, would keep in mind.
pAUEXT
No.4582
pAUEXT
No.4583
pAUEXT
No.4612
Thinking about random stuff. I wonder what I would do if bharatchan ceases to exist tomorrow. This is the only place where I can do my rr. I hope there's always an instance of inch running.
pAUEXT
No.4613
Only time will teach effective ways of dealing with loneliness.
I should be thankful I have parents and family who are supportive and non-abusive. Few have this luxury.
pAUEXT
No.4614
I don't know the actual quote but it goes something like this
>every inchcel is one foid away from becoming a gigasimp
Question is, how do you prevent yourself from becoming that gigasimp? Ik it sounds ridiculous but I am genuinely afraid of becoming that gigasimp again. I don't want to give a girl/girl(s) that power again. Ofc it's in my nature to desire them but my reality makes that desire harmful. Beyond my few fucked up physical issues (trivial tbh) my psyche is also likely too damaged to be redeemed. Harboring any hope for normal human connections then just sucks my soul atp. I just want to be free from this longing. I just want to accept it completely. I don't want to be burdened by hope.
KgGOyG
No.4621
feels nice to write scripts for personal use and actually use them. if it's for personal use it doesn't make sense making ai write it.
KgGOyG
No.4622
0uH3mG
No.4627
The standard for arbitrary numbers is 2222.
!UXrSgcYyQPXshpw
WuQI1I
No.4630
!UXrSgcYyQPXshpw
WuQI1I
No.4631
Man it'd be nice if thread OPs could set thread themes and custom thread css etc.
Also, apparently Microsoft likely didn't want to hurt Intel's feelings so they call 64bit stuff x64/x86_64 instead of amd64 (like how linux does).
mX7hf1
No.4632
>>4631
>if thread OPs could set thread themes and custom thread css etc.
I feel like that would crash the site anon, if the entire website changed CSS for everyone even if it only happened once every thread was made
!UXrSgcYyQPXshpw
WuQI1I
No.4633
>>4632
Oh. Guess it's better only in imagination.
mX7hf1
No.4649
>>4619
>bhach radio would be cool
It would require dayoos to select some kino song that he likes and force everyone to listen it. Then a bunch of retards will chimp out over it. As an idea it would be still very cool and chill.
a6UjBo
No.4650
>>4612
dont you think worrying about bach getting ceased and wont be able to do , is some sort of attention seeking
eiF4O3
No.4651
mX7hf1
No.4652
>>4612
>I wonder what I would do if bharatchan ceases to exist tomorrow.
We will go on, see some people come here to be bitter and seethe, some come here to chill out and laugh a little bit. Some anons can't go any other place, rest choose to be here. Those who comes here because they enjoy it will be well in their life. Others will be miserable irl as they are on this site.
>This is the only place where I can do my rr. I hope there's always an instance of inch running.
Someone will always have one going on. Overall bhach is the probably the best one, since it is a lot closer to 4chan and 8chan in nature than the kind of shitfest inch was. Most inchaners just got their first taste of chan culture and blew it out of proportion.
eiF4O3
No.4653
>>4649
A poll of sorts would work, where anons could vote songs they like. But then there's no one single theme of this place so it'd be hard to choose what to include.
8ipd4Q
No.4694
cant sleep. I have the luxury of listening to music when things amget hard (its just my mind but still). There are so many people, kids who dont have this luxury and live lives I cannot imagine ever surviving through. Some I even know. Abusive parents, bully friends. It saddens me but I cant do shit about it. God please help those poor souls find peace.
8ipd4Q
No.4695
amget -> get*
8ipd4Q
No.4696
And it hurts that despite having every need met and having supportivr parents I still live like a roach. I try to be better everyday but things just doesnt work man. How do I find redemption? my brain is ruining me.
God
kJD6hL
No.4742
got filtered by basic assembly.
:)
kJD6hL
No.4743
zeigarnik effect apparently
