Hello /adv/, I realize Bharatchan is probably not the best place to ask for advice, but I might as well.
To be clear, I'd say I'm doing well in life, I spent my first year of college (before a drop and before covid) mostly at home, the college at first year was also near my home, this caused no social life, stagnation and just overall strife.
I made the decision to transfer elsewhere, not the best place, but its good, obviously with leaving one's home, there's other problems, living in a Hostel has been annoying, and I'm looking to find an Apartment soon. I didn't have as many friends when I moved because no one knew me and everyone had their own groups, but life has been objectively good, or at the very least okay since 4-5 months.
I wanted to go Abroad, not just for the novelty of it, but really to study and experience things, I understand the regular arguements and facets of this, I took on gap year before my first year for entrances and another shot at abroad. And whilst applying for second year, I did apply abroad, and was waitlisted and could have pursued it further had it not been for the 3-4 Cr price tag.
What I'd like to ask advice on are a few questions that keep popping up in my mind.
As I understand, in life there are no set paths, there's no set purpose, no requirements beside staying alive and well, so any direction one chooses is out of volition, towards some cause or desire or thought. My father has his own ideas, and own volition for the paths he's chosen and cannot understand my own direction. The only consistent direction I have found (which he does not disagree with at all, except the immediacy of going abroad) is to go abroad and work within the creative field.
I feel stupid frankly, I can lead a good life here and I think I am now, but every so often I realize im mostly drifting in life, that I am not choosing any directions, but the directions I do want seem to be locked. I am incredibly motivated and disciplined for when I have a direction, and I can commit to it but I don't know if this is the way to go.
How do I know if what I want is actually "worth it" What does it even mean to pursue anything, should I give up and change my desires?
The only things I want feel stupid, they're not at all realistic or understandable, they're very vain, all of it is just self fulfillment. But I dont want anything else, and cannot work for anything else.
here's what I can do, practically
>Pursue a transfer again, abroad
>Pursue an internship for my third year abroad
>Leave college entirely and join a program that I can do whilst figuring out a way to travel
Cannot think of anything more. In my 4th year I will mostly work on an internship, and I do want to go abroad for it, and so also for my third year. I'm not sure if I can go abroad for my 3rd year internship or 4th.
So I have no idea what I'm doing. My Father would not object to anything, as long as its not too retardedly expensive, he doesn't care if I leave college or not. I have the full freedom to pursue whatever I want, I just dont know what, and the only pre-requisite I can see is that its probably got to be abroad.
Inb4
>just wait till masters
Yes, I am, but I also have to exist and do something meanwhile, and I find no interest in other goals
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Hello /adv/, I realize Bharatchan is probably not the best place to ask for advice, but I might as well.
To be clear, I'd say I'm doing well in life, I spent my first year of college (before a drop and before covid) mostly at home, the college at first year was also near my home, this caused no social life, stagnation and just overall strife.
I made the decision to transfer elsewhere, not the best place, but its good, obviously with leaving one's home, there's other problems, living in a Hostel has been annoying, and I'm looking to find an Apartment soon. I didn't have as many friends when I moved because no one knew me and everyone had their own groups, but life has been objectively good, or at the very least okay since 4-5 months.
I wanted to go Abroad, not just for the novelty of it, but really to study and experience things, I understand the regular arguements and facets of this, I took on gap year before my first year for entrances and another shot at abroad. And whilst applying for second year, I did apply abroad, and was waitlisted and could have pursued it further had it not been for the 3-4 Cr price tag.
What I'd like to ask advice on are a few questions that keep popping up in my mind.
As I understand, in life there are no set paths, there's no set purpose, no requirements beside staying alive and well, so any direction one chooses is out of volition, towards some cause or desire or thought. My father has his own ideas, and own volition for the paths he's chosen and cannot understand my own direction. The only consistent direction I have found (which he does not disagree with at all, except the immediacy of going abroad) is to go abroad and work within the creative field.
I feel stupid frankly, I can lead a good life here and I think I am now, but every so often I realize im mostly drifting in life, that I am not choosing any directions, but the directions I do want seem to be locked. I am incredibly motivated and disciplined for when I have a direction, and I can commit to it but I don't know if this is the way to go.
How do I know if what I want is actually "worth it" What does it even mean to pursue anything, should I give up and change my desires?
The only things I want feel stupid, they're not at all realistic or understandable, they're very vain, all of it is just self fulfillment. But I dont want anything else, and cannot work for anything else.
here's what I can do, practically
>Pursue a transfer again, abroad
>Pursue an internship for my third year abroad
>Leave college entirely and join a program that I can do whilst figuring out a way to travel
Cannot think of anything more. In my 4th year I will mostly work on an internship, and I do want to go abroad for it, and so also for my third year. I'm not sure if I can go abroad for my 3rd year internship or 4th.
So I have no idea what I'm doing. My Father would not object to anything, as long as its not too retardedly expensive, he doesn't care if I leave college or not. I have the full freedom to pursue whatever I want, I just dont know what, and the only pre-requisite I can see is that its probably got to be abroad.
Inb4
>just wait till masters
Yes, I am, but I also have to exist and do something meanwhile, and I find no interest in other goals
